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Found out a little while ago that I wont be able to go to America again...I handled it quite well..Maybe a little snappy over the subject, but I've just got to come up with some other ideas now.....Not a bloody clue what though..Just need to get out the house more often, it's driving me insane. Just need the motivation to do something.

Been back and forth to the doctors for the last few weeks. Originally went in because my hands and feet turn funny colours in the cold and go numb...He knew it was Raynauds after describing it, but wanted me to have blood tests to see if there was a cause. Asked me if there was anything else wrong with me, but other than constant tiredness and occasionally light headed, no...I called back for the blood results a week later and it turns out I'm anemic...@___@ It explains a HELL of a lot of things, including being light headed and sleepy all the time....My iron count was 4, which I gather is pretty crap considering the doctors reaction and that 15 is suppose to be the lowest.
I'm currently on 3 different pills which sucks cuz I hate the things....I have to take 2 iron pills a day and 3 if I have no side affects, which I haven't so I may be taking 3 a day.....Apparently they should help my Raynauds too!!..........I just want some energy!!!!! ;____; 

On the brighter and dollie side, Brecht and Elisabeth have their bodies!....My dad is going to make a neck piece for Brecht though XD Poor girl is holding her head...Also gotta make her an outfit...Can't decide whether to redo her face up when the MSC comes. Ripley also has a wig and new eyes on the way..Shame she's body borrowing and has no clothes or face XDDD I was suppose to stop buying, but damn it's hard >< >< Must resist urges.
Alex and Zara STILL need cleaning up and given new face ups ><....Gaaaah....

Okay.....I cease the ramble now.

So!.....Here I am after.....How many months? I suddenly feel like making an entry.....
Yes, mostly because of stalker boy....And yes, I have a stalker...His name is Neil....I work with Neil.....Neil wants to go out with me....Neil knows what sorta clothes I like....Neil plays Devil May Cry because I do...Neil starts to draw manga because I do..Neil texts me 5 times a day because I was stupid enough to give him my number....Neil thinks I'm beautiful...Neil says I'm the most amazing person he's ever met...NEIL wants me to go around his house!......NEIL is quitting smoking for me!......NEIL keeps asking me personal questions.................................................................NEIL HAS ONLY KNOWN ME FOR 4 SODDEN HOURS!!!!........*ahem*.......

Sorry about that.....It amuses me actually..He's been telling people at work that he's in love with me or something like that..I only worked with him for 4 hours on Thursday night @__@....Then he went like mush...This is strangely not the first time this has happened.

Neil is a nice attractive guy, but....Dude..................................Creepy......And he keeps trying to make me listen to bad Metallica songs..Oh and I'd like to point out..He DOESN'T know what kinda clothes I like, he just thinks he does...I do NOT wear skirts and I most deffinately do not wear frilly metallica corsets.

Anyways, onto other things....Work is crap as per usual, but I think that's just expected......I'm happy...Errrr.....My cat is staring at me.....And yes, that IS how exciting my life is.......

I shall start with the 'YAY'....The last week has been fun, JapanEx was hilarious...The actual con itself was rather boring,but that was all made up by the nights spent in the hotel room laughing like mad men...Haven't laughed so hard in a long time..Then we all decided on our next cosplay!...YAY Godchild..I'm going to be Cain <3....And dollie Cain is almost home too!..Thanks to the wonderfully spectacular Beany friend...
Also went to Exeter for the day on Tuesday to buy cat food.....It was tres fun...Ate and drank far FAR too much though...YAY

Soooooo...I got a job finally...I dunno how much I'm actually gonna like it,but none the less it'll be money!
It's in the Co-op with my mother...I so hope I don't get any hours with her!! >< I think most of my hours are at night @__@ And I work Friday and Saturday night,did I mention this place is in the middle of chavilles so I'm gonna get all the drunken chavs come in for their booze......yeah...I think I'm still gonna look for another job whilst I work this one...
I start  tonight....Just gotta go in for a couple of hours for training...Then I have to go in tomorrow morning at 7am to 1pm and again from 8pm to 10pm..They better not expect me to always do that.....I suppose I should shut up whining and be hahaha...YAAAAAAAY..MONEY!.

I've started mine and Shu's cosplay too!..YAY...Got my white trousers done and gonna move onto the shirt today!

Bleeeeeeeh...Ya know what?..I'm sick of people whining at me...I don't NEED it...I'm already in a state where I'm gonna go to the doctors for my own mental health...I don't need other people whining at me about pitiful things!...I mean....I love being there for people who actually HAVE problems,but not people that actually whine about having TOO much money and DOLLS!...How on earth is that a PROBLEM?!?!...Someone please tell me!!...I don't want to sound selfish because I'm not...I've always spoken to this specific person..Even helped them in their 'money dilemma'..I enjoy being there for people..I always listen and do my best to help,but sometimes..not very often because I don't like being fussed over,but sometimes I need a little in return...Maybe thats asking too much?

On to the lighter side of things!..I handed another job application in *crosses finger*

And Reign is actually on his way home! WOO!

So........Its one thing after another....I'm beginning to think that I maybe stepped on too many drains and broke too many mirrors at some point....Or maybe its because I once had a black cat....Or could it possibly be that ladder I walked under?...I did pass my brother on the stairs the other day too.

Well,either way..I think I'm just doomed and am now currently waiting for some non existent person to come and save me.

Now your wondering what the source of this is.......YES....Like I said in my last long time ago post,I have lost my job!...Its just like a cherry on the icing...Just there to top everything else off!.....HURRAH

So now my plans of going to America have probably been moved to the summer of next year because its almost impossible to get a job in Yeovil....I will be trying for vacancies in the hospital though...Wish me luck because I REALLY do need it ><....Maybe I should just join the Army or become a Nun?...What do you think?....Or just go clinically insane and have myself a nice white padded cell and a warm belted jumper to boot?

I want another doll too,but yea my ex-boss sucks and now I can't have anything....I think when my mother found out she was gonna go down there and EAT HIS FACE!...But I need a good reference if I am gonna get a job in the hospital....

What pisses me off the most though is that Kirsty the ditzy whorish blonde who's always complaining of a hangover still has her job!...What does that say about ME?! Mind you,she couldn't be anymore brown nosed than she already is...One of fatmans (ex-boss) excuses was that Krusty wanted to go further in her career there and I didn't......How the FRAK do you make a career in making SANDWICHES?....I'd personally prefer to eat my own eyeballs with a wooden spoon...Ness has "made" a career in making sandwiches and she always looks like a slapped arse..As if shes been sucking on a lemon...Shes sooooo miserable and sour faced....I'm sure Kirsty was probably doing him some favours too...If ya get what I mean......Well.....I'm gone so they can all talk about their drugs and hangovers without me.

In some respects I guess I am a little relieved,but still.....I NEEDED the money.

Woah...That lightened a load....
Am gonna go listen to some Dir en Grey and contemplate having no money and where my futures going,if anywhere.....Maybe make a master plan to take over the world or build my own pirate ship.....You never know...It MIGHT happen.

Oh yea,before I forget...I drew a craptastic picture of my dolls and dolls I only wish I had.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v644/Night_star142003/crappypicture.jpg Yea...Boredom has already consumed...It came out badly too..Oh welly.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!...Hope yours will be better than mine!